Letting Go

Lately I have been thinking to myself. what actually letting go mean to me. In term of my relationship with the one I love? Because i am questioning myself with letting go and not fighting for.  If I love him, I should fight for the one I love. right?? yes!! that’s a big YES for that. Can't let go without fighting for it. Without even trying!! that’s will make me a coward. That will be a justification for what I am not doing. And i am not a coward.

So I found my justification  and that is I've Fight for the one I love but if I cannot have him for myself, i will have to let him go. Letting go now means that I am free to remember all the sweet memories, that I am free to wish him happiness and joy & Love of his life. Letting go mean that i can freely love him from a distance without ever thinking of having back on my life, to share my days and night. letting go mean i can keep all those good memories and love him in the best way by letting him have the best that he deserve to have.

Letting go mean that if he chooses someone else it does not mean that I am not good enough for him or he is too bad for me. It just that we have a different path and we can't not put them together. So we take our own way to reach our ultimate happiness and joy of life.

To love you more...to Let you Free
Medan, April 01,2009

• To Love for Love itself

  I grew up as the second child in my family.Born after my beautiful n smart sister who has all the gift as being the frist born it was not a strange thing if i then run after my sis in all the aspects of our life. But that didnt happen to me Why? simply because i am living in a household where my parents and grandparents love me for being me. yeap thats really cool!! i dont have to be the number one in everything or have to be better than anyone else. I just need to be the kind i am, and i am loved!!
  
  Why am i bragging about this?? because lately i have been asking myself all over about the reason why we have to stand up for others. I found it weird that people have the symphaty for those in Lebanon because they are Muslims. So am i not allowed to help them? am i not allowed to show them my symphaty just because i am not a muslim?? thats strange!!! OK!! thats not all of it. but thats a very simple yet clear way to show it. But there are many other things and many other times when we do something because of a reason because of this and that.
  
  So, my question is simple can we not do anything without expecting this and that in return? Can we not do anything simply because we want to do it? not because we have to do it, not because we know them. Not for any reason but we WANT TO.
  
  Can we not love someone, something for no reason. Not because they are near and dear. Not because they are kind to us, not because we need it but simply out of love itself? that we want to take it into our heart, that we love it for no reason but the loving heart that has been granted in each of us??
  
  Medan, January 10, 2009 
  Sylvia Sipayung
  to Love...to Act
  
   
  

• Year of Grace and Mercy !!

  Everytime i celebrate new year's eve i remember this verse Jeremiah 29:11
  This started in 1998. When the monetery crisis starts in Indonesia.At that time i was working in Sincom Panasonic in Batam as an operator. Life seems to be so scary. Everything seems to get real tough. There's no hope for a better day at that time:)
  
  
  Then at 31st of December 1997, i attended the mass in my church GKPS in Batam. The sermon was taken from this verse and what make it so special is the summary given by the preacher.  He ended the sermon with " I Know that this new coming year is a year full of challenges, hardships and struggles. But i know for me this year will be a year of Grace and Mercy. a year of abundance Love & Joy!! a year of Blessings!! because i know that i have a God who have my life on His hand and He  plans my days the way i can not understand And He plans with His love that endure forever. His steadfast love never fails and all that He plans for me is the very best!!"  It ease my worries and fear and i see the new dawn of new year 1998 with a renewed hope and strenght. and yes that year i got my promotion from operator to Senior operator. God plans the very best of all for those who surrender to Him.
  
  
  And every new year's eve i recall to this verse and especially at the new year's eve of 2009. Seems like this verse again stand tall for me to strengthen me. Renew my hope. Tho life seems so cruel and everything seems to go wrong. I know that God only let anything happen in my life for the better me. I know i can believe and surrender to the plans He has for me. I know i can believe in my God the Lord of all my years. The Lord of my life. My Lord, my Redemer, my Protector & Provider. I know and believe that if i follow His plans, doesnt matter what stumbles on my way. I know the final result is the Very Best of God's plan and thats the VERY BEST of all. Because as what He declares on that verse His plan is to prosper me and not to harm. His plan is to give me hope and a future. and that future in this yeaar is the future of Grace and Mercy.
  
  
  Praise be to God for the year of Grace and Mercy. For the year of Blessings!! a year of Love, Peace and Joy.
  
  
  Medan, To any new day of new year
  Hope...Faith and Love
  Sylvia Sipayung